Hypocrisy

Was filing a few papers on Saturday, and then said something on a lighter note. She did not react, all she said was, "I don't comment on the weakest point of people." when all she had done in the last few months was exactly that. I was aghast at the hypocrisy. How can people keep doing something and then claim to be virtuous and not doing something that they do already. Its like a smoker preaching "do not smoke" or a liar preaching truth. How can people have the guts to do that. Doesn't their conscience hurt them? I actually doubt whether they even have one. 

I have been observing people since quite a while now. And what I have observed is people have a different set of rules for them and a different set for others. I neither care about what those wagging tongues have to say nor do i bother one bit. What disturbs me is how do people bring themselves to do such a thing? How? 

Some Words of Wisdom

Got the following as an email forward. Loved it, especially pt. no. 25, 26 and 29:- 

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.. It is the most-requested column I've ever written.
My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn't fair,but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate,resistanc e is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others.You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret,you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful,beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19.. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Love????

Just read a post on AJ's blog about "being loved, why love, do we need love?", basically love. I have been thinking of this since quite a while. Love? What exactly is this? How do you know when somebody is falling in love with you? How do you know when you are falling in love with someone? Had a discussion with PS on this, today morning. He said, "I cannot define things which cannot be defined." I agree with him that love cannot be defined but there must be something which makes you go weak in the knee, which makes you drool over somebody, which makes you feel only if I could stop time here and be in this moment forever. Not that I haven't had these moments. But those were just moments which have left those incomplete feelings born then, to wander in the forests of uncertainity. Not that I didn't know about that feelings existed but I was always scared. Dunno of what? Once a classmate in graduation told me, "Although you seem to be a chatterbox and talk a lot with everybody, there's a girl in you who's quite, who doesn't talk, who's scared, who doesn't shed her inhibitions and it is beacuse of that girl that you never take a chance when it comes to relationships." At that point in time, I just waved her off but she was right. Its because of that girl that I haven't ever taken any risks, any chances, in the hope of getting something better tomorrow, i kept losing what today had to offer me. Somebody recently told me, "Mai apne sapnon ke liye aaj ki opportunities ko to nahi chhod sakta na..." It was said with the perspective of career and profession in mind but I wonder if the same thought can be applied to relationships as well. 

All of us want to be loved, want to be dependent, want to be cared for, want the silences to talk but who is to blame if you yourself don't let that happen. Right now, I am tired of being independent, being completely on my own, from gas, ghar ka rent, bijli ka bill, mobile ka bill, khana se lekar tabiyat, doctor tak sab kuchh khud ko hi karna hi padta hai. I have actually started questioning whether all of this is actually worth it.

Uff! this entire blog entry has gone so haywire.. Just goes to show the chaos in my mind. This just doesn't make any sense at all but still i am not gonna delete it, because it has captured "now" and its chaotic silence. :) Happy Reading!!!

P.S.: Do let me know if you know how do you know when you are in love or somebdoy is in love with you???